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Monday, December 05, 2005  "my role in society, or any artist's or poet's role, is to try and express what we all feel. not to tell people how to feel. not as a preacher, not as a leader, but as a reflection of us all - you're just left with yourself all the time, whatever you do anyway. you've got to get down to your own god in your own temple. it's all down to you, mate - i remember what it's all about now, you fuckers - fuck you! - i mean, is there something wrong with society that's making us so pressurized, that we cannot live without guarding ourselves against it? - jesus was all right but his disciples were thick and ordinary. it's them twisting it that ruins it for me - if being an egomaniac means i believe in what i do and in my art or my music, then in that respect you can call me that. . . i believe in what i do, and i'll say it - surrealism had a great effect on me because then i realised that the imagery in my mind wasn't insanity. surrealism to me is reality - i always was a rebel...but on the other hand, i wanted to be loved and accepted...and not just be a loudmouth, lunatic, poet, musician. but i cannot be what i am not - i'm not going to change the way i look or the way i feel to conform to anything. i've always been a freak. so i've been a freak all my life and i have to live with that - nobody controls me. i'm uncontrollable. the only one who can control me is me, and that's just barely possible. and that's the less on i'm learning. if someone's going to impress me, whether it be a maharishi or yoko, then there comes a point where the emperor has no clothes 'cause i'm naive, but i'm not stupid. for all you folks out there who think i'm having the wool pulled over my eyes, well, that's an insult to me. but if you think you know me, or you have some part of me because of the music, and then you think i'm being controlled like a dog on a leash because i do things with her, then screw you, brother or sister, you don't know what's happening. i'm not here for you - in one way, i was always hip. i was hip in kindergarten. i was different from the others. there was something wrong with me, i thought, because i seemed to see things people didn't see. i always saw things in a hallucinatory way - everything is clearer when you're in love - i'd never met a woman i considered as intelligent as me. that sounds bigheaded, but every woman i met was either a dolly-chick, or a sort of screwed-up intellectual chick. and of course, in the field i was in, i didn't meet many intellectual people anyway... ...i don't want to die at 40"
posted by Simon Monday, December 05, 2005 |
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